Final Nitezzz

I leave my house from last Friday till today. Already 5 days i dont see my lovely parents n i miss Chocolate BB very much. Within this 5 days, i try my best to ignore n temporary forget the internship case but came to last night, everything get back to my mind. I cry coz i know once they take the final heavy decision, i will suspend from the school and i cant do anything on it already. I keep telling myself not to worry but is hard. I make she worry n disappointed again. I dont dare to cry in front of her, she feel sad n down as what i feel from the day i terminated. I hate to see she cry in front of me as i promise her a lot of things. I thought she can proud of me, i damaged her hope at the moment i did the serious fault. She love me more than she love herself, this is what papa told me. I regret but is too late. All the day i try to comfort her, but last Thursday i decided to step out from my house coz i dont know how to create another story to claim her down. She try to call me this few days but i seem like simply answer her call, i dont want she ask anything about the case already as i know i already exhausted from it. I think to msg them but i didnt, i just dont want worry cover another worry. I take this lesson as a study, take the punishment as a journey but i need time to disgest all these, is really too heavy for me. Im sorry for all these even is too late. Sorry to all, i think u all will know who i mentioned. I love u all in my heart deeply...