Final Nitezzz

I leave my house from last Friday till today. Already 5 days i dont see my lovely parents n i miss Chocolate BB very much. Within this 5 days, i try my best to ignore n temporary forget the internship case but came to last night, everything get back to my mind. I cry coz i know once they take the final heavy decision, i will suspend from the school and i cant do anything on it already. I keep telling myself not to worry but is hard. I make she worry n disappointed again. I dont dare to cry in front of her, she feel sad n down as what i feel from the day i terminated. I hate to see she cry in front of me as i promise her a lot of things. I thought she can proud of me, i damaged her hope at the moment i did the serious fault. She love me more than she love herself, this is what papa told me. I regret but is too late. All the day i try to comfort her, but last Thursday i decided to step out from my house coz i dont know how to create another story to claim her down. She try to call me this few days but i seem like simply answer her call, i dont want she ask anything about the case already as i know i already exhausted from it. I think to msg them but i didnt, i just dont want worry cover another worry. I take this lesson as a study, take the punishment as a journey but i need time to disgest all these, is really too heavy for me. Im sorry for all these even is too late. Sorry to all, i think u all will know who i mentioned. I love u all in my heart deeply...

Mistakeeeeee

Today suppose to be my last 2nd day on the internship but i damaged everything coz i did something which is very very serious & no one can give excuse on it. I made fake MC n this found out by the training coordinator. She called to my college, they actually decided to terminate me from the internship. =(

I admit my fault for doing all these things, i also apologize n wish to get a chance to try again but it is fail. College lecturer ask me to wait for 2nd hearing from SWE panel and the training coordinator said that terminate is the final decision of hotel since my mistake is too serious. She said want to treat every trainees fair.

Within the whole 5 months, i have been very be careful on my every single steps coz i dont want to repeat the internship. I tried my very best to do all the tasks which ordered from bosses, even sometime im not happy on that but i still finish it bcoz i know this is the time i must go thru. I dont blame anyone but only myself coz i did that.

Why i can accept apologize from the others but the others cant accept from me??? Why i can forgive ppl even they do something very wrong but ppl cant forgive me on the mistake??? I regret on doing all this, i rather tell the truth instead of now~~~TERMINATED... Im sorry for the fault i did, sincerely apologize to all of u. SORRY...