LaLaLaLa

Already 27th of May. This 2 days wasnt a good days for me, headache made me very suffer. Not enough or sleep too much??? I also dont know... Mr. Haedache, can u please take a rest???

Last night when i told u that, my heart really pain coz i know it going to happen soon but it is a MUST for me to do that. I thought u will just ignore like last time but finally i received ur msg. I know u concerned about that, i read from ur msg, different from what u sent me last time.

Just like what i told u, i dont wish to have any changes on anything. Nobody can give a 100% promises on it even myself. What i can do is only try, try and try. I dont know whether u can do the same things as me or not, i still believe on it.

R u thinking the same things as i think??? R u doing the same things as i do???

Im Happy

How was ur Sunday??? Me... Slept like a pig until he 'disturb' me. Wakaka = )

Had a super normal breakfast but with a lot of planning. Just wondering why he will spend his time with me for all the things which he doesnt like. HeHe... We go shopping!!!

From Carrefour to G2000 after that Carl's then back to G2000. Both of us like to go Carrefour, we can start being aunt uncle comparing the price. HaHa... This is what we will do every month coz he need to buy Maggie Mee. Yesterday i realize that the Cintan Mushroom Soup is buy for his parents. Such a 'GOOD' son. = P

G2000 is me who want to buy suit coz having sales!!! At 1st see a lot of ppl so we decide to go for our lunch at Carl's. RM39.30, he come out with this 'my heart very pain' when he see this amount. Wahaha... We normally will not eat expensive fast food coz i will always save the money for him but yesterday he promises will bring me thr while he 'disturb' i slept. = )

Sometime i feel that we got nothing to chat on phone, MSN or even sms but when eat together, we can actually chat non-stop. This always make me eat very very very slow. HeHe... Busy on chatting. Then he will start complaint, 'Why u eat so slow de? The burger still got half till now.'! Excuse me, is bcoz of the burger too big n my mouth too small la!!!

My G2000 suit is he choose for me de. Before we reach thr, that is a funny story. We pass by Ace Hardware, he said let's go in. Of course i will ask why coz we dont need any hardware. He told me want to buy needle. Buy needle for what??? To make the suit. ZzZzZzZzZzZz... His brain can turn very fast when come to make fun on me. But i still laugh non-stop, he did that too.

Lastly, back home sleep like pig again. He knows me, i hate ppl disturb me when i sleep expect for him. = ) The way we love each other, understanding in heart and keep in mind. Muakssss...

I wish u all have a great day. ^_^

H-U-R-T

The heart feel very pain now and i cant stop my tears from falling. Im ready to go, go to a place where i can have a new begin. I can start all over again just to hide my 'scars' at Malaysia. If i dont meet up with all of these fellows, i will not get the moment of suffering right now. Once u disappear, please dont step in to my life again. U wouldn't know how much u hurt me, please bring all ur things go out from my life. I dont want to see even ur shadow. I try to be brave to stand for all these, i loss at the time my tears fall.

WHO WILL LOVE ME IF I DONT LOVE MYSELF...

痛心

你對512記得多少？？？其實這個日子對很多人來說可能普普通通，但是對中國四川的每個百姓而言，那是烙印在心中的痛。512四川大地震，你還記得嗎？那天翻開報章，我看到每篇報導，心裡真的覺得很酸，很疼。短短的几個小時里，上萬個家庭支離破碎，陰陽相離。這殘忍的事實吹毀了多少人的希望，帶走了多少人的未來？？？各國的救災行動幫助災民表面上的痛，心靈上的創傷卻無法彌補，復原。聲聲對親友地呼喚，都代表他們的思念。

另一個故事就是最近被謀殺的中五女生。是因為嫉妒，報復，還是錯手的殺害？？？對於這件事，我的感觸更深，因為不好的遭遇曾經降臨我的人生，差點讓我站不起來。還好有你們。。。珍惜雖然很容易說，很容易寫，但是又有几個人真的作到？？？我也剛剛起步學著珍惜。我知道你們對我的關心和保護，也不希望過去的歷史再從演，我自己也不希望，因為我的心比誰都痛。我學會了愛自己，所以歷史不會再從來，我也希望你們相信。

今天選擇用中文來講述這兩篇新聞，因為這是我的母語，是我的傳統，是我的教育，更是我的驕傲。每個字都代表著我此刻的心情。。。不要把你的快樂建築在別人的痛苦上。不要把你的慶幸踐踏在別人的不幸上。不要把你的幸福寄託在別人的悲痛上。在別人的傷口上撒鹽，不只是身體上的折磨，更是精神上的虐待。請停止你這殘忍的行為，愛他們多點吧！！！

LOVE PEACE......

Here It Go

I think Ryan will know what the purpose of these photos... = )

P/S: Frenz... Give me some comments on the photos. = )

Im Fine

Suppose to have breakfast with BB this morning but stomach pain so the appointment canceled and he go out-station. = ( This sad face is bcoz stomach pain.

Finally i remember to collect the clothes which i sent to dobi. HaHa... Almost 1 week plus i leave the clothes at the dobi shop. Back home and choose the new photos with my leng lui mama. My leng zai papa see i using the 'old' laptop, he popped up with this 'Why use this slow laptop?'. Wakaka... That is his laptop and now using by my youngest sister. He also know the laptop very very slow. = P

Another day having breakfast with my leng lui mama. Chat a lot with her, some more hint her for something but she seem like dont get it. Haizzzz... Is ok, time will show what i do and what i need. She keep reminding me to clean my room. She bought me a new wardrobe last month, my clothes and bags already full fill in it. My study desk......... Many mountains on the desk. HaHa... Lazy to keep it but still have to do it within this month. = )

Thanks alot for my lovely frenz's concern. Im really ok, i do promise will stay happy always and my smile will always on my little face. ^_^ Muackssss...

Editor Joanne

Wahaha... Im too boring already. That's why i posted 3 posts in a day. I edit some of my photos but not good like what the others did. I still need help on editing photo, please HELP... = )

Tuesday Afternoon

Ermmmm... After sharing the suck guy, now want to say something else as what i said Joanne's life still go on. = P

This morning wake up coz have a breakfast appointment with my leng lui mama. HaHa... What a fool??? Mama have to make an appointment with the daughther for breakfast. This is bcoz Joanne is a pig(always sleep). Even my darling(s), dear(s) and BB also must make appointment with me. Im so sorry for that but u all have to do it. HeHe... I will try to change de, give me some time ya. = )

Hakka cuisine breakfast, 'lei cha'. Healthy meal but not tasty as my aunt from Seremban who cook that. Wakaka... Homemade is always better than outside. Today dont eat much, order a small portion and share with leng lui mama, of course order other dishes also. This breakfast is not only both of us, my grandma and Aunt Mimi go together. = )

I having a very good mood after Sunday night. Wohoho... I think im on the way of simple and happy life. = ) ENJOY ENJOY ENJOY...

Liar ~~ KL

WTF... Can a guy being so cheap in his life??? Keep lying the others just bcoz of his own happy n comfortable feeling. Damn useless la... KL, u r a liar!!! U can just blame the other gals not good and bla bla bla but how about urself. NOT SINCERE to the gals also. Nobody born to make u happy, nobody live coz of u. Frenz r not rubbish. When u dont need them, u can just delete them from ur list. When u r happy, u add them back to ur list. U dont know how to appreciated, USELESS MAN!!! U r nothing at all... Stop ur shit words before ppl look down on u. Stop coming out to spread ur 'virus' as well. Hate to meet u in my life, u r another black spot in my life. U r not qualified to be my frenz also. Get lost from my life...

Dear frenz, i think u all know me well. If i dont get angry till that limit, i will not say something so bad on a person and some more posted on my blog. I think i have good enough to this fellow coz i still hidding his name by using KL, he himself should realize that. Sorry for being so rude in this post coz i really cant stand it. Joanne can be very nice to anyone, i just wish to make more frenz in my life. Unfortunately, i have met with 2 'frenz' which dirty my life and made me have a bad memories on that. Haizzzz... Joanne's life still go on. CHEERS UP EVERYONE = P

Lovely Sunday

Morning... Morning... Morning... Do nothing in this morning but just feel lovely when i wake up from my bed. = P The following stories dont affect my super good mood today coz all happened on yesterday, already PAST.

1st PART------>
Last night when for SUSHI at MidValley. I was so so so full~~~ Teriyaki, Shashimi, Miso Soup, Sushi... Thanks for giving me a great night of dinner. I know u not really like to eat Japanese food but we were still thr last night. Chat a lot... Eat a lot... Drink a lot(green tea)... Enjoy my dinner!!!

Happy to know that u r not going to Ipoh tomorrow. = ) HeHe... Coz u no need to stay overnight at thr. Maybe we can hang out again tonight. Make it as a wonderful weekend even im a bit busy on my stuff.

P/S: No picz coz too many ppl at thr, paiseh to take picz and busy on eating. = P

2nd PART------>
Have my supper as well with my parents. Chat with my papa and get to know a lot of things which made me not really happy on it. I do promise myself, i will fight for it. = ) Coz Joanne is strong enough to fight for her ownself. Wakaka... Sound like superwoman ooh.

Again i want to bring out this, 'Forgive but not Forget'. How well u can understand this phase??? He/She did something wrong before, 'forgive' is to give he/she a chance, 'not forget' is remember that incident as a lesson. Unfortunately, i found that u havent forgive and also forget.

Life is simple, full with expression. Why make it so complicated??? Can it just back to the start point, as long as im happy then u will feel happy too??? I love u all more than anything/anyone coz U R MY FAMILY. Is only 4 words but it contains so much of meaning in that.

3rd PART------>
Nightmare these 2 nights. Arrrr...... Ghost on the wall, i think i watch too many horror movie. Very scary in the dream. Frenz, remember not to invite me for any horror movie if u r not planning to sleep with me at the night. Only offer for ladies, guys will kill by my parents if sleep with me. Wakaka... Uncle Nightmare please dont come to find me already.

His promise with other conditions. Haizzzz... M i worry too much or it will happen in one day?? He will just fooling around but sincere to me??? Then how about future??? Guys, what do u think about fooling around??? Come to this again and again, when he will awake from this??? Wish to slap until he wake up. HaHa... ^_^ Joanne going to get mad soon.

4th PART------>
About her... At 1st i really wish she will happy in her new relationship coz i know JxxxN is very bad to her. Come to KxxxY, he is a good guy from all but he already married. That is a lot of issues in between. What i want to say in this case is,
a) Love is not hurting anyone.
b) Revenge on a relationship is such a shame of urself.
c) Replacement is not allow in relationship.
d) Giving up not means u r loser.
e) Anger and evny come from true love.

Dear, i wish u will see these. I dont know how to talk to u on phone. I feel sorry to support u on starting the relationship. Whatever i see and hear now is a cruel fact to all of u who involved. Make urself step out from the circle, maybe u can see something different on it.

Share with u guys till here, i got to busy on my stuff again. Muacks... Happy Sunday!!! = P

*#@?!% Saturday

'*#@?!%' means dont know how to describe the day. = P

Wake up early today coz got to fetch my little sister to school then back home sleep again. Joanne=PIG is proven. HaHa... Dont know when i start sleep like dead ppl, what time, what place also can sleep. Let see what i do in this morning...

Having breakfast with Livia at cafeteria(bread with tea ice), we planning about our holiday. How long time i dont go for holiday already??? Studying + Working = Hardworking. HeHe... = ) Suppose to go HongKong next month but the swine flu make my trip no longer cancel. Now some more come in to Malaysia.

Then start reading newspaper but help my little brother to find a new college coz he said he want to stop his SAM programme at Taylor's. Ermmm... Is that course really hard??? Dont know what this fellow thinking also. But hate his attitude, always think that he is the PRINCE at home. WTF...

Now blogging plus thinking my SUSHI night and my FUTURE. A bit regret when i realize most of my frenz doing so professional right now such as medicine, law, dentistry, pharmacy and bla bla bla... 1st, regret to give up my Senior Middle 3 life which make me lost a UEC Certificate. 2nd, regret not entering pharmacy course after A-Level. Haizzzz... = (

Am i stupid??? Got regreting feel at this moment. I really enjoy in hotel this industry coz i make a lot of frenz and i know what i really want in future. On the other hand, thr is something missing which i requested from secondary school till... CONFUSE again!!! Already 21st yrs old, so i cant start all again.

My dearest frenz... Please give me some comments, bring me back to the way. Another 6 or 7 months to go then i will finish my Hotel Management Course at Sunway. Time gone so fast from the day i leave Taylor's till now, almost 2 years already. They know i miss them, PM13...

Let see some of my recent photo after reading my story...

P/S: Snap all this picz while waiting him for supper and the lovely bear bear from PM13. = )

Can U Understand Me

From 7th of May till 11st of May, is only 5 days but why i feel like we r so far away from each other again... Is something wrong to my feeling or something bad going to happen soon??? At 1st, im so happy to see u put our picz on ur display. This kind of feeling doeesnt last long...

I can forgive but i cant forget... Most of ur words hurt me like roses' thorn. I will not know when the words will pop-up but it is ALWAYS. I cant get what u think now. I should say in this way, after the gal appear, u change a lot. I thought i know u well last time. Unfortunaly, i failed. What position im now holding as? Even myself is confused.

I just wish to care to u. In ur mind, im disturbing u. I slept with my tears this few night. I want u sayang me more coz u know that i can only get that from u. Why u want to be so cruel to me? All the things i did for u is not enough to make u satisfied on the relationship? Or maybe im wrong... Relationship shouldnt have a point of satisfied???

Can we just sit down n heart talk for a while? At least i know what u want, i know what to do. Instead of now, being a stupid idoit run here n thr just try to make u smile. I dont know how long can i continue to do all these for u but i know is not long like last time.

Will u read this? Will u know my feeling right now? Will u...

12nd of May

Today got 3 stories will share with u all, i will make them in 3 different posts.

1st, let's talk about MOTHERS Day last Saturday(we celebrated 1 day earlier). I suppose to wake up at 6 o'clock to go market and buy all the stuff but is slept till 7am. I just spend 30 minutes to get all my ingredients in the wet market. Wow... How fast is that??? = )

When reach home, 45 minutes i used to clean all the ingredients plus cook the 'lao huang gua' soup. Remember my menu??? 4 dishes with a soup. Excellent, right??? I have finished prepare all my things before 9am that morning. End up, i take a nap on the sofa while waiting my grandma bring me the fried fish powder.

I start cooking the 4 dishes at 10 something coz i know my leng lui mama will not wake up so early n the dishes can be presented on the dining table at 10:45am. HaHa... I can manage my time very well now. This is how a littel Chef look like. = P Ermmm... I nearly forget to cook rice, luckily i saw the rice cooking pot. Everything go well that day expect for my tougue!!!

'Want to try???'

'Nice leh!!!'

Haizzz... I think my tougue got some problems. When i tasted all the dishes, it really taste good, i mean it. However, when they had they breakfast that time, i was told that the fried egg with tomato is without salt, the vegetable is too waterly, and the sweet & sour fish got a weird smell. Grrrr... WHY??? WHY??? WHY??? Only the soup n sambal sotong are nice. = (

'Lao Huang Gua' Soup
Fried Egg with Tomato
Sweet & Sour Fish Fillet
Sambal Sotong

Vegetable

A bit disappointed la... But i saw she(leng lui mama) smile, this is my point to cook the breakfast on earlier MOTHERS DAY. She was so happy that morning. After everyting finished, i really turn to be a dead pig. Wakaka... Too tired already, of course i bath before sleep, be a clean dead pig. =

'Leng Lui Mama busy on tasting'
'SEE... she smile...(just wake up)'

End of the meal...

'Still leave half pot'
'Forget to add SALT'
'Weird taste'
'Yummy Yummy'

The same day, we went to Genting to continue our MOTHERS Day. HaHa... Unfortunately, i forget to took picz at Genting coz busy chatting with my cousin, Randy. Long time dont have fun with him, talk a lot that day. We went to casino also, Joanne already 21st yrs old. = )

*P/S: Now then i realize, my picz missing. HaHa... @~@

Today

Very lazy to wake up in this morning. Planning to get McDonald for my breakfast but finally i didnt. Still very blur now... = (

What i shared with u all yesterday??? 7th May & MOTHERS Day... Last night wasnt so nice for me. His decision spoil my planning even my mood. I slept with my tears last night, the heart feel so pain but i dont tell him. Maybe i should say in this way, i already know the final answer very early but i just wish it will have some changes. Haizzz...

About MOTHERS Day, i already got my menu. Sweet & Sour Fish Fillet, Fried Egg with Tomato, Sambal Sotong, Vegetable and 'Lao Huang Gua' Soup. Isnt too simple??? But i think she(leng lui mama) will like it. What is the plan after this heavy breakfast??? Ermmm... I will sleep like a dead pig after that. HaHa... = ) Coz got to wake up early in the morning to market to buy all the stuffs then back home to clean and cook it. TIRED loh... It is worth!!!

As usual, wait for my photo la... = )

7th & 9th of MAY

What is these 2 special date??? Ermmmm... 7th of May is a meaning day for me from the past 3 years n i do wish to continue in the future. A lot of stories for this date, i grow up from all the incidents. It makes my life from simple to complicated then back to normal. HaHa... I think some of u will understand what i try to say. SMART...

For 9th of May, is my off day. = ) Can u really remember what day is that??? Bingo... Is MOTHERS DAY. My leng lui Mama day, i keep thinking what to do for her on that day in this morning while im driving to work. Finally, i realize that she always complaint i dont cook for them even im a little CHEF. Wakaka... I remember only 2 times i cook at home n the respon is.................... Yummy Yummy!!! So this coming Mothers Day, i will cook a breakfast for her as well. Now headache on the menu, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

By the way, i will upload the photo for this 2 days. Give me some time, plz!!! Coz i got many things to do. T_T

My life is full with 'Task Task Task' but i really enjoy on it. = )

Intro of JOANNE

Hello, im Joanne(Shu En/Su Ann) here. A 21st years old gal with a lot of dreams in mind. HaHa... I still stuying now, Hotel Management Course. In which University??? Ermmmm... SUNWAY University College. I stay with my parents(leng zai papa& leng lui mama) now. Where i stay? I will tell u when u ask me. = ) I got a younger brother n a younger sister. My grandma staying with us also, she is the 'Chef' in our family. What i like to do at home? Online... Sleeping... Watching drama... Eating as well... My life is so simple but only at home. Beside study, im working also. Im a tuition teacher. Cannot believe it??? But is trueeeeeeee!!! During free time, i will accompany my dear(s). I got many dear(s) loh... I need to spend time for them, shopping la... watching movie la... eating la... clubbing la... singing K la... and many many things to do with them. HeHe... ^_^ I will upload their photo slowly and introduce to u all so can know who r them, of course my photo as well. Wakaka...

Conclusion... Want to own this blog is to share all my things with my lovely frenz, let u all know how r Joanne now. I will share a lot of stories with u all. Sweet, right? Love u all so much.... MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS = P