Before I Leave

Haizzzz~~~ Finally i got the depart date already. =(

Not much ppl know i'm leaving soon, don't want to bring the sadness feeling so early to all my dearest fellow frenz. I wish to have fun with u all in the coming 2 months as what u all know I love U All so so so much.

1st, i told my dear Nicole before she went to China tour. I feel sad when i heard her voice, she is my best buddy in KL. She know a lot of me, she understand me very well and i do so. Thank God for giving me this best buddy. =)

Mama seems like don't want to i Switzerland now. She start giving all the non-reasonable reasons to stop me from going there. I know how she feel coz i'm her daughter forever. Just wanna let she know, MaMa~~~ Ann will take good care of herself over thr.

Papa didn't express much of himself in front of me, not even ask me anything about the study. I can understand why bcoz he know i can handle everything at Switzerland, he proud of me. I promise will do the best at thr. I swear...

Grandma hasn't know the news yet. Nobody wanna tell her, she will cry. These are what she always tell my mama, 'Ann very independent, i can sleep tight when you n ur husband are not in.' Guess how she will be when she know i'm leaving soon. T__T

My brother n sister just know a bit on it. The eldest sister doesn't want to let them know also. We are not so close to each other but i sayang both of them. Nothing got to change our relationship as a family. ^_^

Who else know i'm leaving??? Dawn, ShinYee, Apple, Shan, Nikki, Wills, etc... YOU knew that also. Are we trying to pretend??? We don't even talk about that to each other, is bcoz my tears??? I will appreciated the coming 2 months' times with YOU.

Another few more days to my final. I'm doing my revision everyday as what YOU told me. I will study hard. I love u, PAPA & MAMA & KELVIN & STELLA & POPO & YOU~~~ T___T

说出口

We did a great job on the Penang assignment and the presentation. Thanks to everyone who participated on the work, u all r the BEST. Dawn, ShinYee, Apple, Ro, Ali and Leian...

终于做了最后的决定，明年一月尾要到瑞士深造。我一直告诉所有的人，我不想流着眼泪看着你离开，所以自私地选择要流着眼泪，背着你离开。说穿了，还不因为‘不舍得’而已。不舍得现在的一切，但是深造是一定要完成的。早点完成，那以后就不会有那么多顾虑了。我不知道该如何告诉你，晚上跟你发简讯的时候，我们谈了心中的话。我希望这段时候，我们是幸福，快乐的，就像是我们一开始的时候。

好好准备接下来的每一科，一定要把它们击倒。我也会开始准备我的期末考。一起努力哦。。。

Notty Joanne

Finally im totally awake from hang over. Still remember i went to Coco Banana with friends last Saturday???

It should be a great night but i spoiled it. I don't even care about my own image. I know i not suppose to drunk at that night.

I need to work hard on the last assignment and also start revise on my final exam. Another 2 weeks to go, must fight for it. Let's study hard...

GAMBATEH~~~

Facebook

OMG... Day & Night with my laptop n Facebook ON. Fish World & Cafe World everyday. Worst, i even woke up in the midnight to play these games. Haizzzzzzzzzz... MaMa said childish Joanne, hardworking on playing game only!!! HeHe~~~ I think so but i enjoy the time. =P

FB-ing again at college. However my lovely darling Dawn like to play with these, hanged ppl pc by sending [!@#$%^&*()_+] msg thru Facebook. She always do that even i'm beside her. Notty Dawn, some more laugh when see our pc hanged. >.<

GTG to office loh~~~ Boring training n meeting. =.=" SMS me if u boring coz im boring also. Wahaha... xD

LiFe

Recently busy on my assignments and presentations plus working and meeting!!! Wanna know, am i happy now???

Mama ask about the further study again!!! I really got no idea loh. PlzZzZz... Can someone help me??? I'm so scared to move to a new place alone and so far away from all my lovely~~~ T____T As i know, u all proud of me n wish i can have better future but.........................

HaizZzZzZz... Hate to make decision!!! Is harder than solving add maths question. ^_^ Oppppssss... I leave out something on my last post, my French test 71/100. Can't believe i did well in the test leh. SMART JOANNE!!! HaHa~~~=)

My SE W910i was sent to 'hospital', auto on off everyday, i scared it will booooooom in a day. Wakaka~~~ During the moment i get my new phone coz dont want wait SE W910i 'discharge'. BLACKBERRY CURVE(11st Octorber 2009) is now with me!!! As a gift for myself la coz i so guai... =p

Must stop and go ooi ooit already, tomorrow morning got class. I will go if i manage to wake up on time. HeHe~~~ MUACKSSSSSSSSS

Crazy Life~~~

Hello all~~~ I'm damn lazy recently and also a bit busy la. I can only updated once a month. What i did n happened on me??? A lot a lot to share leh...

Before i went for the study trip, i always hang out with my dear Nicole. We go yam cha, shopping. Kind like a busy life hor!!! HeHe~~~ But very long time didnt hang out with her jor loh coz she busy busy busy. ^_^

1st, i went Penang with KDU coursemates, a 3 days 2 nights trip. I had a fun time with they all, especially IHTM 8 classmates. U all r great, i proud to have a gang of frenz as u all. I sleep with my 'lao po' ShinYee n darling Dawn same room with dear Apple for the 2 nights.

Chit chat with her till 4am the 1st night and wake up at 7am in the next day. 2nd night, played n drank at beach till 1am but my 'lao po' drunk already so Heng came to our room n take care her. So sweet leh~~~

But then, i didn't eat Asam Laksa at thr loh. The stupid tour guide bring us to a night market with nothing nice to eat. Blek blek blek~~~

After that, i busy on my assignments. 3 assignments to finish up and i almost slept at 3am every night. Pity Joanne, the panda eyes till now still haven't reduce. Soon can send me to zoo for exhibition, Malaysia Panda Bear Joanne.

Yam Cha

I still havent sleep, already 2am. Drinking my cold cold Milo n blogging now.

Friday go yam cha with my dear dear Shan. This meet up already planned for few months but she busy on assignments plus exam. Finally we made it on Friday night at Kuchai Lama PappaRich.

Our topics really that much. From 8pm to 10 something still havent finish. She is another best frenz who know me very well, I cant hide everything from her. HeHe... >.<

Both of us really funny n damn like to act, silly acting make us laugh the whole night. She is my 'master' of bluffing, teach me all the bad things. Wakaka... =)

OMG... She said she is fat but i can only see her panda eyes. Dear dear Shan ar, u think too much la. FAT r too far away from us, we r SLIM~~~ ^_^

Ermmmm... Dear dear Shan, im here to wish u all the best on everything. U should know what i means. I like to see u smile more than stress--pretty Princess Shan.

Before u finish ur 'long long' holiday, we must go gai gai again ar. If not next time hard to go gai gai already. =( This time got no photo to upload coz we didnt take any photo, just busy chatting.

I got to stop here loh, papa scold already n BB sms me, said he reach home already n want to sleep now. Tomorrow go dinner buffet with my family. =P

Nitezzz~~~ MUACKSSSS

Back~~~

Helloooooo everyone, Joanne is back. =) Almost 1 month didnt update my blog. HeHe... A bit lazy n busy but finally i still updated u all on my recently life.

I already start having fun on my new environment. Thanks to everyone who take care me in few weeks, im not lost anymore. Wahaha...

National Day Eve, i went for a gathering with all my primary school classmates. Happy to see all of them after 9 years. Year 2000, class 6M, cheer forever!!! ^_^

Then, start busy on the mid term exam n assignments. Haizzzzz... I didnt really do well on all the subjects. Must study hard now ooh. >.<

Another Saturday nite, went Japanese Buffet with BB at Subang Sheraton. It wasnt a good dinner for him. He ate the 'spoil' cherry tomatoes but im damn full.

Last Saturday nite, another gathering with primary classmates. Wohoho... At Sri Hartamas Souled-Out Restaurant then have beer at Mont Kiara. Great night again!!! =)

Yesterday clubbing nite with Sunway mates at MOS. Drunk plus high, we really enjoy. This is how we get closer with each others. CHIVAS + DANCE...

This coming weekend still got many things to do, stay tuned for my updates ya. I just roughly share my dayzzz but will have more details soon. Wahaha~~~ MUACKSSSS

New Environment

第三个星期我来到这个新环境。老实说，我真的很不习惯。我很想念Sunway的大伙儿，因为他们都很疼我。他们最近都忙着assignments，希望9月9日能跟他们碰面。

今天，是我在KDU的第一个presentation。虽然没有以往的紧张，但是我依然希望能做到最好。=）有点骄傲噢。。。很开心这次的presentation，我跟他们的关系大有进步。

很搞笑的事情又发生的，我以前在Sunway曾经有人误会我是韩国人，因为我的肤色咯。今天，又人以为我不是大马人，因为我的英文腔哦。哈哈。。。

还有哦。。。我也曾被以为我是中国‘婆’。有点粗俗咯。。。因为我的华语有台湾腔而已啦。我可是土生土长的马来西亚华侨啊。不要再误认我了~~~

再过两个星期，我的Marketing，Food Costing和French就要Mid-Term了。好可怕哦。。。我到现在只准备了Food Costing。Marketing只读了1个chapter。你讲死不死~~~

十月还要交2个assignments，我的日子该如何过啊？？？救。。。命。。。啊。。。唉，像妈妈说的，咬紧牙根挨过去咯。十二月就毕业了，值得的~~~

好啦，我该睡了。这个周末会有很多事情分享哦。不要错过啊。。。晚安各位亲爱的~~~

Final Nitezzz

I leave my house from last Friday till today. Already 5 days i dont see my lovely parents n i miss Chocolate BB very much. Within this 5 days, i try my best to ignore n temporary forget the internship case but came to last night, everything get back to my mind. I cry coz i know once they take the final heavy decision, i will suspend from the school and i cant do anything on it already. I keep telling myself not to worry but is hard. I make she worry n disappointed again. I dont dare to cry in front of her, she feel sad n down as what i feel from the day i terminated. I hate to see she cry in front of me as i promise her a lot of things. I thought she can proud of me, i damaged her hope at the moment i did the serious fault. She love me more than she love herself, this is what papa told me. I regret but is too late. All the day i try to comfort her, but last Thursday i decided to step out from my house coz i dont know how to create another story to claim her down. She try to call me this few days but i seem like simply answer her call, i dont want she ask anything about the case already as i know i already exhausted from it. I think to msg them but i didnt, i just dont want worry cover another worry. I take this lesson as a study, take the punishment as a journey but i need time to disgest all these, is really too heavy for me. Im sorry for all these even is too late. Sorry to all, i think u all will know who i mentioned. I love u all in my heart deeply...

Mistakeeeeee

Today suppose to be my last 2nd day on the internship but i damaged everything coz i did something which is very very serious & no one can give excuse on it. I made fake MC n this found out by the training coordinator. She called to my college, they actually decided to terminate me from the internship. =(

I admit my fault for doing all these things, i also apologize n wish to get a chance to try again but it is fail. College lecturer ask me to wait for 2nd hearing from SWE panel and the training coordinator said that terminate is the final decision of hotel since my mistake is too serious. She said want to treat every trainees fair.

Within the whole 5 months, i have been very be careful on my every single steps coz i dont want to repeat the internship. I tried my very best to do all the tasks which ordered from bosses, even sometime im not happy on that but i still finish it bcoz i know this is the time i must go thru. I dont blame anyone but only myself coz i did that.

Why i can accept apologize from the others but the others cant accept from me??? Why i can forgive ppl even they do something very wrong but ppl cant forgive me on the mistake??? I regret on doing all this, i rather tell the truth instead of now~~~TERMINATED... Im sorry for the fault i did, sincerely apologize to all of u. SORRY...

Cheras Neway

Last night went to Cheras Neway and have a super great night at thr. =) Jeff, Fong(Jeff's GF), Jack, Ray(BB) n me!!! 1st, welcome back Jeff n Jack(working at Philippine for long long time). No need to quarantine at home for 7 days. Wakaka...

We went thr at 12 midnight but go to the wrong Neway(miscommunication). Coz need to drive so dont drink much, just half bottle of Kampai Ice, share with BB de. The 3 brothers(Jack, Jeff n BB) sing together last night, 张卫健~~~你爱我像谁. Wonderful match leh... =)

The 2nd time i went sing K with BB. 1st time, he only sing 2 songs but last night he break his record, 7 songs ooh!!! Got 4 is chinese song loh. He is a banana so we all really suprised when hear he sang chinese songs. GENG arrr...

I also sang till no voice already last night. Till 4 oclock morning then we back loh. Neway staff too careless already, they miscounted n im the one who not include in the charge. HeHe... See i so smart, walked away(actually with a call la).

We took a lot of photos but all the photo now with Jeff. Once i get it then will upload it immediately. Another secret, i got record when BB sang last night. Wahaha... It will not be uploaded but i will keep it. =)

At last, thanks to Jack n Jeff for treating us for the night. Jack, u r a really gentleman, so sayang me all the time like Sou(Kenzo). Jeff, u r a great Brother n BF. Love u all so much, u all r my big brothers!!! MUACKSSSS... ^ ^

好走

我的心一天比一天痛。我辛苦了那么久，我真的以为雨后会有晴天，谁知道你又纵容她出现在我们之间。我可以做的，都已经做完了，我问心无愧。你不体谅我，不顾及我的感受也无所谓了，我累得连哭的力气都没有。我只想过回以前那种单纯又简单的生活。一波一波的风浪在我身上划过，我忍着痛，不曾埋怨半句。我虽然没有别人的生活艰苦，但是我也吃过苦头。为什么当我学会珍惜的时候，你没有给我机会？？？你在我身上留下的伤痕还不够多吗？？？我在地府绕了一圈，你难道都忘了吗？？？她对你是什么？？？你可以为她的一句话而低声下气，对我却像女佣般地刻薄。你知道的，我从来没有埋怨。今天我终于压抑不了心里的感受了。。。对不起，我想要的你却不能够给我，你能给的却又不是我想要拥有的。再见不如怀念。。。

**Have add in some new stuff in my blog. My profile with picz and also a fake mini iPod with My Song of The Week. =) Wish u all will like the song. Can do recommend some song for me also...

独自的快乐

我尽量让自己快乐，因为我总以为只要我快乐，我身边的人就会与我分享那份快乐。原来是我太天真，快乐不能分享的。即使你想别人分享，别人也不会领情的。

原本愉快的周末却因为有人的‘无心’或‘有意’，就这样结束了。勉强让自己的笑容挂在脸上，只是不想其他人受影响。我不是伟大，而是谅解。。。

两个人的梦想，现在却只有一个人努力，哪还有意思吗？？？当初的承诺又在哪里？？？我还是那么地傻，继续为那没有结果的梦想而奋斗。我应该放手了吧！！！

我不再给自己任何借口去伤心了，也不为你找借口，我很早就醒了。我的眼泪早就没有为你而流了，该走的还是会走，我不会苦苦哀求停留，保留。。。

累了，该休息了。明天起来还是阳光普照的一天，我会好好地走每一段路，我坚强了。。。

慌

昨天因为一些事情让我的心情一直很不好受。不明白为什么要那么自私去伤害其他人？？？难道就不能为别人想想？？？是因为我太软弱，所以才会一直被欺负？？？

被利用，被作弄。。。这就是我用真心换回来的结果吗？？？我都知道，只是不出声。如果你们坚持要爬上我头来，我也会发飙的。我的容忍是有极限的。

请不要在我身上找任何的好处，不然我会让你很难看。我已经受够了你们，不要让我指名道姓的把你们一一公开，即使会失去友谊，我也不在乎。

我知道只要你（BB）在，你绝对不让其他人欺负我，但是这次你在我身边却帮不了我。我不能告诉你事实，因为我错了。我的任性让我隐瞒了这一切，对不起。。。